reason #1

I ran seven miles last night. First off - that's the farthest I've gone. It's incredible to say that instead of 6.5. Not only that, but I have not be training like I should have been and so the fact that I went the farthest is INCREDIBLE.

Second off - At the three mile mark, I had my PR! I'm getting so pumped about this ten miler, and if all else fails I know that I can at least finish it. I was getting scared but now I know that if I just get into the mind set, it'll happen.

I won't be first, I might be last but I'll finish.



:DDDDDD

look um in the face and say

When I think about my past prayer groups, I realize how much they helped me as a Christian. As a person.

Here's a shout out to:

Carly
Lauren
Heidi
Cheryl
Cassie
Bethany
Sophia
Rachel
Abby
Brittany.


I thank God that He let me be a leader in your life. I hope I didn't fail too bad.

KNEW IT

KNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW ITKNEW IT

a single spine

Note to self... I miss you terribly. How funny would that be if I meant that seriously?

But seriously, shutting PEOPLE out because I want to BE SAFE is not going to work.

Cause I'm a (previous) history major.

taking it a season or two back

I'll be alright. I'll always be alright. I could be kicking and screaming in the middle of the room, and I'll be alright.

smacks of jealousy

To anyone who actually reads this... so no one:
Have you ever had a moment when you realize everything you've ever thought about something just gets shattered?
I know I have. Sometimes it's for the good and sometimes it's for the BAD.
I'm not going to give any particular names or instances here for the sake that this is a public forum, but there are some people in my life that have pumped information into my brain that I thought to be true. And while it did not affect the way that I viewed people as if I liked them or not, but it did affect the way that I thought that they were in general. I thought about it a lot, and I was thinking where it could all come from. Then it hit me, jealously.
It's so funny how girls are jealous and they'll subconsciously make up reasons as to why things are going the way that they are. To justify why a girl is getting something that they wish they could have, it's something that they want and they don't understand why they don't have it themselves.

This is my effort to not do this. It'll be hard since it seems to stem into the origin our being.

can I explore?

Remember a few posts ago when I said, "I HATE SUMMER" "IT'S COMPARED TO SOMETHING LIKE SCREECHING NAILS ON A CHALKBOARD MIXED WITH DRINKING PEA IN THE DARK" ?

I take it back. This summer has turned out differently than I expected. There are laughs and late nights and fun times a lot of money spent and a lot of money saved. A lot of sweat lost but in a good way, and plenty of self built up. Friends have been deepened..... and broadened. Horizons explored. Movies watched, shows started and homework almost late, but always finished.

I'm tired, and still on the pasty side but this summer is not lonely and it is not private and it is not set apart. Now don't get me wrong my frandz, I am longing for days of PUMPKINS and  SCAREMARE and COOLER WEATHER and running OUTSIDE! But I've enjoyed my time in Lynchburg with its pretty sunsets that can be compared to cotton candy or a spring dress and its mini-golf. It's coming to a close, and for the first time I think I can say that I'm not looking forward to it.

VA TEN MILER UPDATE:

I haven't registered. I started training. Three miles today! Three!! Seven, to go. I'll register for the race this weekend. I'll pack this weekend as well, for next week, I move to another house where I'll owe most of my money to for the next nine months.