We are all inventors

Today was one of those days and I did not want to go running. I was feeling a lil apathetic and just didn't care. But I remembered my goal, that doggon 5k and out I went.

Now I feel like a million bucks (probably because I am a million bucks)

AHH! daybyday

John Bingham

“If you run, you are a runner. It doesn’t matter how fast or how far. It doesn’t matter if today is your first day or if you’ve been running for twenty years. There is no test to pass, no license to earn, no membership card to get. You just run.”

all about risks

I want to share a little story with you. It was yesterday, and my aunt asked my mother and I to come to Elkton to go shopping with her. She had Kohl's cash and wanted to treat us! We said yes, and I was really excited. Why was I excited you may ask? But don't worry because I have a list of reasons for you
1) Shopping! I haven't had new clothes since August!
2) My aunt! She's funny, and makes me laugh. It's always so unexpected, too.
3) A chance to get out of the housseeeee and not play Tetris battle.

Anyway, my main goal was to get a cardigan or sweater with elbow patches. They're starting to become trendy and I've wanted one since like - this past semester. Sweet, so I'm looking and looking and I even pray. I say God, It would be so cool if I could get an elbow patch type of material in my HANDS.

Well, I switch from juniors to young adult, and surprisingly I really like what I see. I felt like I stepped out of the Disney Channel to America's Next Top Model. It was cool, right? I was finding shirts and POLKA DOTS that I actually like! CRAZY! And I'm looking, and while everything I liked was too expensive and no elbow patches were coming up, I was like fine, I'll just have to find something else that I really like. So, I find a Flannel shirt etc etc, and then I pick up a cardi because I always want a cardi. It's grey and I'm like yea, this will match things that I own, plus it's a really good deal because it was like 50 bucks and now it's only like 15. Great - so I get it and then I'm showing my mom and aunt, when I grab and the arm and the frabric feels sort of funny on the elbow...


DING DING DING! ELBOW PATCHES. Let's just say that I drove home with a happy heart and 24 likes on my facebook status.

riches of your love

There are times when it feels like my faults shine through any good that there is in me, and it feels like there are times when my faults are the only things that anybody can see.

How amazing is it though that I have someone who loves me if I'm not the fastest runner, the best writer, the person who can bring the best laughs, who doesn't care if I talk about the things that I love. Someone who puts me first, and not new founded friends (even though they are always accepted), someone who loves every ounce of my annoying, stuttering, and not so-good storying self.

It's a hard pill to swallow - rejection, but to be honest I'm accepted.

isn't to be passive

I laced up last night. It's been about a month (probably more, shamefully). It felt so right. It felt so good.

you are good

when there's nothing good in me

I wish I had an answer to that because I'm tired of answering that question.

I asked God. I said, God - is it a Yes? Is it a No? Is it a Wait?!!?
I did not get a response. I prayed that over a week ago. And I continued to pray it.


I was driving myself nuts, and today God firmly said no. It stinks because its clearly not what I want, but I am not going to do what I've done in the past. I cannot wrestle God because He always wins. It's fighting an uphill battle, so what I have to do is find joy in this. Joy in that God is the one making the shots, that He is the one that has my best intentions because He has a bigger picture. This time I really am going to be okay with this, because God knows best.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. " - God Himself.

CLAIMING my promises.

time to grow

Priorities (Kindof in a particular order)
1: God! This should be a given, but I seriously want to read my Bible everyday. And not just in the "I'm doing this to check off a list" type of read. No- I mean digging deep, getting down to business and hearing from the ultimate being who created the WORLD!
2: School Work! I came to school, and I've been so blessed. Liberty has been a huge blessing to me and by showing how much I appreciate it, I need to make sure I get my homeworks done. It's a pain... but I'll be so happy when I graduated.
3: Running! I've got legs, and I'm going to use them. Plus, it feels good.
4: Friends / my social life. This is important to me. Life is about relationships, and I've been given friends and I want to deepen those relationships.




This past weekend was fall break, and there were only 4 girls on the hall. By the end of break I realized how tired and weird I felt.

Maybe because I've settled within myself that I'M EXTROVERTED.
cha ching.


Back to more homework. Friday will be the best day of the semester I feel like.

see ya bloginator.

keep living the dream

This past Saturday, 7 boys and 4 girls got to run on the field before the cheerleaders and the football players. Two boys got to carry flags, that sported the words '12th Man' and '4QF'

The most exciting part is that I was one of the 4 girls. (Obviously not one of the boys..)
Right before we left, we got to stand at the edge of the field, and the Star Spangled Banner was playing, and we were saluting the American Flag and Roxie leans over and says, "Never forget this."
That is why I'm blogging now. It was cold out, and there were goose bumps on my arm, for a moment I felt like I was apart of something big. Like we came together and formed America for what it is today.

If you want to watch it in all of its beauty.

Afterwards, Roxie and I had plans to see Oklahoma with some friends from our first year, and they dropped our tickets off at the will call so they didn't have to wait on us. Since the game started at 7 and the show was 7:30.
The lines to change out of our ridiculous outfits to classy wear (aka the bathroom) was out the door, so we had no other option but to find a secluded staircase and take care of business. The best part of the story is that we had 5 minutes to spare.

1+1

I have not seen my dorm since 8:30 this morning.

boys in the polos

History repeats itself. Maybe that's why I study it.

Maybe that's why I don't want it to be the same as it always is.

hands up

friends, at a football tailgate.

cute, right?

Got my blonds on the left and my brunettes on the right

senior year (part two)

This is honestly the beginning of the end. There are so many things that are running through my head..
here are a list of them.
1 - MATH?? ONLINE!!???!!
2 - What am I going to do after I graduate?
3 - I can't wait to graduate!!
4 - I want to stay in college forever
5 - Ugh, Lynchburg is lame
6 - I should find apartments on craigslist, in Lynchburg
7 - I need to run!

This is not the time to worry though, I need to set all of this aside and just live this year out like it was my first - with excitement and no worries. Everything else will fall into place, because let's be honest, it always has.

On another note, I went bridge jumping.

I

was escorted out of the rot, missed the all night of prayer and had to pay for a new flames pass.

Times are interesting, folks.

btw

we're headed to hershey park tomorrow! last week we were in ocean city, new jersey. 20 salivations and 3 baptisms to sum up the week. Happiness or satisfaction consists only in the enjoyment of those objects which are by nature suited to our several particular appetites, passions, and affections. These, my dear friends, are not my words, but they speak it. They speak the feelings and emotions that coincide with the inner of one.

I'm going to pack now. I'm going to fill my suitcase with love, and hope that tomorrow will not result in heat strokes. Or Friday :)

bye

glass of coffee and a conversation

It's like when everyone gets invited to a party on Saturday and you never got the invitation, so you sit at home hoping that at least someone will remember to call you.


But they don't, and you don't understand why and all you can do is check your phone every few minutes. Then a few seconds, then your promise yourself you'll stop looking but stop doesn't come. You think reading a book will help pass time, or sleeping, or maybe cleaning your clothes. But when all of those things are done, what's left?

gladly leave my pride

I need to tell you about my life.


But then again I don't take commands, maybe next time when I'm lucky enough to get a computer.

1/9 done

I don't know the percent of that, but training week of camp is over. If anything, I'm not fully prepared but I am fully willing to be bent for the kid's that I will work with. I'm nervous, but I have to remember that these kids are looking up to me.

It's going to be tight.
I'm reading two books. These should provide though provoking topics to blog about.

But for now I will blog about my new friends. FROM AROUND THE WORLD ( I said that in a New Zealand accent). So cool


cul8er4noa

this is so uneccessary

Today, after a long day without coffee, and the biggest migraine ( I say that every time), I went to a store with people from camp. This store was interesting, because everything was in Spanish but we were in America. Where they speak English. However, we are located right outside DC, and it is probably common for such a diverse group of people.

Also, I laughed a lot. It was nice and fluffy.

Sometimes when you pray for things, God just answers your prayers for you.

"If my people, who are called by My Name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land." 2 Chronicles 7:14

it's the camp of the ultimate weapon...

Hiya, posting from Silver Spring, MD here. I arrived yesterday and I was nervous.

Overwhelemed and kindof changed my mind, but when my mom left I knew I had to make the best of it. And it's been about a day and some hours, and everything is okay. It's going to be okay. Teenagers will be my best friend by the end of the summer

I can't wait.

I live in a family from the church's home, and they have internet and a nice comfy bed and there are two people here from school that I know. Basically, God set this up just right for me. I love it. And I'm close to home, so I know how it feels when I'm at school and people live two hours away. :)

bye, for now.

living rightly

(October 2009)


Number 1 - I've been running for just about three months. I've lost 12ish pounds, and that's with about two weeks of break (thank you finals and foot injury), and the total amount of weight loss is shy of 30 pounds. When I say that it feels like I'm robbing people of some false hope - like the weight just melts away, when in reality I feel just the same as I did a year and some months ago.

I needed to end this, I went on a hunt and I compared pictures.
(April/May 2011)
You probably can't notice it, but I can. It feels good, but I'm only far from done.

It's kindof like that saying about still running in the forest or something crazy like that.

Number 2 - The reality that this is the last summer I hold until I am done with my undergrad it scary. I'm looking at grad schools all over the nation, I'm not afraid to go anywhere, but the more I think about it the more I am. I would love to study in New England, or the West Coast, and it would be so much fun, but how would I feel okay? I wouldn't have any friends or family around me, and I would not know what to do with myself. But - life is full of opportunities and there is a world out there that is yet to be discovered. What will I do to make money? Where will I study? What will I study? How will I pay for it?! so.many.questions, and so much time to answer them. Sometimes, it's just that effort to go forth and make it happen.

The Idea of Waiting For Something Makes it More Exciting

I'm making it happen.

lala la la light

My loan went through today. On a Saturday! I jumped in my seat and said, oh hold mom I have to do financial check-in. Asap!

So I did, and it's official. PTL

My running shoes still HAVEN'T come in. I'm giving that e-bayer a negative feedback, so hard she's going to feel it all the way in New Jersey.

I'm sick of not running, so I'm going out in my beat up shoes here in a second.

I need to stop thinking about it because it makes me so mad, that I feel my skin starts to boil

here's to praying that my loan will go through in the next ten days

Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle..

2008 - the year our economy took a sharp fall. The stock market significantly fell, jobs were lost and families became frightened. My family was one of them, if not at first, definitely now. Not only my mom, but my aunts, grandmothers and everyone in between. I've been earnestly praying and today my mom got a job interview to be a property manager in Newark! If she gets it, then we'll be okay

Displaying generosity in this time is not the easiest thing to do, but God's generosity to me could never be easy in any circumstance.

Proverbs 11:24-25

Boscov's Tea Party

Boscov's is such an old lady store, and I went today.

But more importantly I went to a tea party for a three year old. We didn't get the memo but everyone else was dressed in floral dresses and big sun hats. It was cute and I ate a cucumber sandwich...

step

- What do you worry about and obsess over?

- What do you use to comfort yourself with?

- What preoccupies you?

-What do you think about throughout the day?

- From where do you draw self-worth?

-What is your identity?

- What is the first thing you want people to know about you?

- What is the greatest thing you want out of life?

- What things in life would you not be willing to give up if God asked you?

This was asked at the church I freshly attend at school. ANSWER TRUTHFULLY, and in your heart.

I hope you have found a friend.

Trips to DC, 10 Ks, photoshoots, Some best friends, and exclusiveness. This all equals one of the best school years. Ever.

And now I get to go back, thank you sweet Jesus! :* Thank you friends for all of the memories. You are all amazing and am so grateful for you.

Seal my heart and break my pride
I've nowhere to stand and now nowhere to hide
Align my heart, my body, my mind
To face what I've done and do my time

btw

My government professor is crazy, yo.

We aren't allowed to use the bathroom - which is understandable when he requests we 'potty' before class, but he went on a rant about how rude it was to get up and leave.


"SERIOUSLY - it's rude."

Preach!

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me, shine until tomorrow

For a few months I have been under this idea of sadness. I can't seem to shake it off.

No matter what prayer I say, no matter what verse I read and no matter who I am around. With my family, with my friends, in my school work or even before God.

It wasn't until today that I realized that the world does not revolve around me. Of course I knew this before, but since last semester I have been so caught in trying to be the center of attention that I have pushed myself before God's work.


Mistake #1. Lesson learned, God is good.

But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

2010

What a year, what a year.

Wow, I feel like there are two different parts of this year.

The really good part and then there’s the really crappy part.

Good parts include: weight loss, good times at my favorite school (Liberty!), embracing change (a new concept for me), the awesome small group I was involved in last Spring semester. Friends visiting me from VA in the summer! It was for a night only but it was a blast and made me feel so lovedappreciatewanted etc etc. A lot of laughs, being on a normal sleeping schedule in the summer, driving in New Jersey for the first time by myself. Getting lost on thus route but finding my way out and only being late by five minutes :) Going to Richmond, VA, Charlotte, NC, Washington DC, Baltimore, Maryland and Lewistown, PA! Visiting over 8 different homes of friends from school! My goal is to way higher than that :) Having a ‘cru’ and always doing things with them. Including downtown, taking endless amounts of pictures, watching movies in snowflex and the clab, claiming every spot on campus, and staying in the CLAB every night until 2 AM. Growing to love six girls that I meat every Tuesday and pray for dailly ;)

Knowing I need God in every part of my life.

Tested and tried…

Bad parts include: Leaving above stated small group. I think about it often and God is working in those girls lives, and I miss it so. Saying goodbye to Naomi. She’s right up the street but she’s not mine anymore. Having someone take me on a walk and tell me that my life is not honoring to Christ and that I am a bad influence, thus removing me from her and her family’s life. This was the hardest, I think. Saying goodbye to more than just her but also a few friends. Realizing I have so many problems that I need to fix. Personal things my family has been through. Realizing why I had been so pro-feminism for all of those years. Getting little sleep during my Fall semester. My first and FINAL D in my college career. Ugh, jealously running through me. Being homesick for the first time of my life, and having my first Thanksgiving away from home.

2010 has been such an eye-opener.

However, in the year 2011 I am looking for peace, restoration, healing, and forgiveness.

And there can never be too many witty laughs. :)

From my quiet time yesterday.

Mark 2:21

“Besides, who would patch old clothing with new cloth? For the new patch would shrink and rip away from the old cloth, leaving an even bigger tear than before.”

Here’s to tearing off the old self and putting on my new garment supplied by Jesus, my peace-giving, restoring, healing and forgiving Savior.