whaddup blogpost!!!
today was just any other ordinary day. the color of despair painted the skies since it was before six am. i laid in bed, i refused to get up. i got ready in 15 minutes and off to work i went. no hair, no makeup.
just another ordinary day.
after working out and getting home to make myself quite a boring lunch, and to take a nap that was 2.5 hours long, i found myself mindlessly feeling rushed to pull my hair to the side so it wouldn't look bad, and i was disappointed that i wasted another day. another day of just going through the motions and not really doing anything with it. just another day of fixing books, putting them back on the shelf. just another day of working out and putting on nice outfits that get wasted on the rot and on the locker room at the gym. when did my days become so dismal? when did my hours turn into a ticking clock that didn't mean anything?
today, i saw an old friend at the gym. a friend that i see at the gym a lot, actually. she and i catch up briefly when we see each other. she tells me that i need wear more sunscreen. that i need to sleep more and eat right. and she always tells me that she loves me. she never forgets that part. i tell her the same back. and i believe her. i know that she really does care, and it if weren't for these times at the gym, i would never get to see her. she brought a lil sense of joy to my day, and she made my dull boring routine a little brighter. ironically, she is apart of my routine and i love that. i love that i get to see her there, day after day, week after week.
i just want to make something out of this. i feel stuck in a rut, like everything is the same and i'm not challenged. i should take this time in and really rest on this downtime, because in a month (less than now), i will be anything but rested. planes, dollar bills and cat naps are going to be my life. the calm before the storm.
no one said that the storm had to be a bad one. thunder storms are scary, but what really comes from there? some thunder? a lil rain? but what's after them if it the sun is still out?!??!
a daggon rainbow!
but i am glad i played volleyball and i am glad that i didn't allow myself to be shy. i was tempted.
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