We are all inventors

Today was one of those days and I did not want to go running. I was feeling a lil apathetic and just didn't care. But I remembered my goal, that doggon 5k and out I went.

Now I feel like a million bucks (probably because I am a million bucks)

AHH! daybyday

John Bingham

“If you run, you are a runner. It doesn’t matter how fast or how far. It doesn’t matter if today is your first day or if you’ve been running for twenty years. There is no test to pass, no license to earn, no membership card to get. You just run.”

all about risks

I want to share a little story with you. It was yesterday, and my aunt asked my mother and I to come to Elkton to go shopping with her. She had Kohl's cash and wanted to treat us! We said yes, and I was really excited. Why was I excited you may ask? But don't worry because I have a list of reasons for you
1) Shopping! I haven't had new clothes since August!
2) My aunt! She's funny, and makes me laugh. It's always so unexpected, too.
3) A chance to get out of the housseeeee and not play Tetris battle.

Anyway, my main goal was to get a cardigan or sweater with elbow patches. They're starting to become trendy and I've wanted one since like - this past semester. Sweet, so I'm looking and looking and I even pray. I say God, It would be so cool if I could get an elbow patch type of material in my HANDS.

Well, I switch from juniors to young adult, and surprisingly I really like what I see. I felt like I stepped out of the Disney Channel to America's Next Top Model. It was cool, right? I was finding shirts and POLKA DOTS that I actually like! CRAZY! And I'm looking, and while everything I liked was too expensive and no elbow patches were coming up, I was like fine, I'll just have to find something else that I really like. So, I find a Flannel shirt etc etc, and then I pick up a cardi because I always want a cardi. It's grey and I'm like yea, this will match things that I own, plus it's a really good deal because it was like 50 bucks and now it's only like 15. Great - so I get it and then I'm showing my mom and aunt, when I grab and the arm and the frabric feels sort of funny on the elbow...


DING DING DING! ELBOW PATCHES. Let's just say that I drove home with a happy heart and 24 likes on my facebook status.

riches of your love

There are times when it feels like my faults shine through any good that there is in me, and it feels like there are times when my faults are the only things that anybody can see.

How amazing is it though that I have someone who loves me if I'm not the fastest runner, the best writer, the person who can bring the best laughs, who doesn't care if I talk about the things that I love. Someone who puts me first, and not new founded friends (even though they are always accepted), someone who loves every ounce of my annoying, stuttering, and not so-good storying self.

It's a hard pill to swallow - rejection, but to be honest I'm accepted.

isn't to be passive

I laced up last night. It's been about a month (probably more, shamefully). It felt so right. It felt so good.

you are good

when there's nothing good in me

I wish I had an answer to that because I'm tired of answering that question.

I asked God. I said, God - is it a Yes? Is it a No? Is it a Wait?!!?
I did not get a response. I prayed that over a week ago. And I continued to pray it.


I was driving myself nuts, and today God firmly said no. It stinks because its clearly not what I want, but I am not going to do what I've done in the past. I cannot wrestle God because He always wins. It's fighting an uphill battle, so what I have to do is find joy in this. Joy in that God is the one making the shots, that He is the one that has my best intentions because He has a bigger picture. This time I really am going to be okay with this, because God knows best.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. " - God Himself.

CLAIMING my promises.